Present moment

Judah's new question of the day is: so has the baby arrived? I've been reading him books about being a big brother, mommy's growing belly, and other themed books around our growing family. I know his full understanding won't come until the baby is actually here, and never leaves, but it's fun to see his brain try to wrap itself around this concept of a little sister. How'd the baby get in there? How's it going to get out? What's a birth canal? (trying explaining that to a 3 year old..ha!) It's a precious time to see his brain try and comprehend a concept that I'm explaining to him, yet he cannot see. Here I am telling him there's a baby in mommy's belly, but he can't see it. Yet he trusts me. My son is constantly teaching me lessons about faith, grace and love each and every day.

The other day I took down the girl clothes that we do have from hand-me-downs in the attic. I started sorting through and pulling out the smallest sizes. My eyes welled as I'm filled with unimaginable gratitude that I get to hold another life inside of me. Seeing how tiny the clothes are, Judah's look like man clothes in comparison! It's fun to take small steps in getting the nursery together. Even though I know that she won't even use the majority of the items for months and months, it doesn't stop my excitement to see it come together. This season of life is so full.

The theme of seasons in life keeps coming up. The church we go to had a wonderful series a few months ago titled Seasons that discussed how each one brings different challenges and hope into our life. This church has been a beacon of hope and a rock of comfort since we started attending in 2012. Little had I known what God had in store for us. I look back over the last few years, since we started attending the campus local to us, and I can see God's footprint all over the people and opportunities he placed in our life to help us through the past rough season of our lives. I am so humbled and thankful for God's grace and mercy.

I've never been good at living in the moment but I think becoming a mom has helped that to a point. I don't mind the passing of time as much and I really appreciate that life changes because it can be really hard. But then, it can also be really good. In this present season of my life, I'm really trying to soak in each and every day for what it is. As winter turns into spring, I can see that it would be harder to appreciate the warmth of the sun and the scent of the flowers if we hadn't weathered through the harsh, cold months prior. It doesn't make the winter any less cold, but it does provide a hope of change and warmer months to come.